Over the past two years my concept of home has been dismantled one roofing shingle, one 2 by 4, one new window at a time. It's been curious and painful and enlightening all at once. As every load of debris went dump bound, every piece of sheet rock was man-handled to the second floor, every plastic tote …
Category: Faith
Late Bloomer, Slow Learner
I am the square in "fair and square"… I get the joke 5 minutes after everyone has left the building… oblivious to Downton Abbey for two seasons, I am now hopelessly addicted. It also takes me awhile to work thru things, like… …mourning for family togetherness experienced last Christmas ~ ~ extended its unwelcome stay into February, …now that we are …
Faith or Fear
Every morning they rise and make me choose... faith or fear. Which one will it be? Faith stands tall with a light... calling. Quietly. Fear rolls at my feet like an under current, longing to pull me down. They both ask me to believe in something I cannot see. Today I choose faith. Again, and again, and again. When …
New Morning
What do I do when, ...false words are spoken? ...help offered is ignored? ...kindness it criticized? Well... I eat a second cupcake, stuff down a handful of potato chips, polish off the rest of the "fun size" Halloween candy bars... then I sit in a stupor in my recliner feeling like an idiot, until.... I pull myself together. …
The best thing I learned this summer
As my husband might say, “I have a case of the fall-a-parts”. Things have been breaking loose, you know... a summer of being undone. The last couple months have been full of things I've never experienced before... - cancelled a very important trip for an emergency tooth extraction - lost all my credit cards and didn't …
Using my Laser Vision
For a couple weeks now, a picture has been floating in my head… this little boy, red boots, red jacket, green hat… standing on the edge of a frozen highway… alone. It’s one of those life snapshots I’ll never forget. The picture, the sounds, the circumstances are as real to me this moment as they …
Encouraging One Another
The trees we haven't planted yet... propped against the workshop... just can't wait to bloom. Promise. A new friend calls... "How'd it go" ...so we talk about that. And she tells me about her garden and the great find from the thrift shop and what they're having for dinner and I can't help but smile because I can …
My Big Ball of Smarts
I've learned a great deal unpacking boxes of stuff. It turns out I collect a lot of paper. I have a wide variety of child's art, report cards and letters home from basic training. Papers touched, decorated and written on by my sons were causing me stress. I couldn't bare to throw them away even tho my …
Epiphany…. I almost missed it
It takes me awhile to process things. I "mull", I debate inwardly over and over again, which is why I am just now coming to terms with January 1st. January 1st was our family Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years all rolled into one. A lot of expectation for one little day. It was the day we had most of our kids and …
Christmas Continuity
Last week I was stuck on Christmas Perfection... or the lack thereof... or the search thereto (pretty sure that's not a real word). This week it's Continuity. I like things and people and traditions you can count on. Turns out, my continuity has been seriously messed with this year, but not totally done away with... ..... like these chubby-cheeked …
Heart's Home 