waiting

The week before Mother's Day, I wrote a few words on Facebook and posted several pictures of my mom.  I planned to write an appropriate blog post on that Sunday, to share some special things about her.  I wanted to wrap up this segment of life and move on. I couldn't do it. And that's …

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consistency

In early 2015, my son, David, had to return to Iraq with his unit in support of Kurdish troops.  Since he'd started the retirement paperwork process, I thought that exempted him.  It didn't.  He went. With the exception of combat deployments, David called Doug and I every Sunday evening for all 21 years he served.  …

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the perspective of time

Just as Doug and I were adjusting to freedom and the ability to come and go as we pleased after Mom died, the corona virus shut us down.  Plans we are making for our future look a little fuzzy today.  They're still out there, we just can't define the how and when. My daily routine …

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i thought you’d be here in the morning

~~my journal 2/18/2020 - "death is so sudden, even tho we were waiting.  I wish I'd taken time last night - - but no, I just wanted to finish washing dishes and mom is always so needy.  I'm glad I checked on her.  She said she felt strange and should we worry about it.  I …

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6 hours

We leave moments after the caregiver arrives.  Friday.  11 a.m.   I feel relieved to go and guilty at the same time. He takes the long way around to the coast.  We drive for two hours through beauty that should be enjoyed and photographed, but I keep nodding off.  No pictures.  No conversation. I am tired …

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stop running

A few months back, searching for an old Halloween photo, I found this picture.  We had moved to a new home, in a new subdivision, several miles south of San Francisco.  I know this to be true because my dad's beloved and well maintained lawn, flower garden, fence and side yard fish pond didn't exist …

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with or without you…

"Almost everything will work again if you unplug it for a few minutes, including you."  ~ Anne Lamott Life rolls on, even if you're not ready, with or without you.  Well, I guess you have to go. But I have not been rolling gracefully. So I'm going to try Anne's remedy and unplug.  The theory …

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The Last Someday ~ A Memorial

Originally posted, May 2012 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I've been thinking a lot about that sneaky word - Someday... ... about how I let it rob me of time I thought I had... and what am I going to do about that now? ... about my parents as they face major change.  As Mom said the other day, …

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he loves me like that…

Three favorite stories, short and sweet... At Passover Meal, knowing he would suffer and die, knowing his disciples had no clue what was about to happen, Jesus told them of his eager longing to share this meal with them.  An eager longing to share.  He loved them like that.  (from Luke 22:14-20) At that same …

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…notes from the dark side of overabundance

It's doubtful anyone who knows my family would associate our surname with minimalism.  I know I'm bucking the tide, but it's a way of life that appeals to me more and more. I'm a fan of Joshua Becker's, Becoming Minimalist, website.  He's practical and inspiring.  I didn't care for her book, but watched every episode …

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