the long haul

Yesterday marked our first full week on the road.  It’s been great.  It’s also been hard.

Much of the time it felt like the steep grade on highway 140 in eastern Oregon.  We made it but not without a great deal of sweat and wringing of hands…well, that was mostly me. 

This first week was marked by two trailer tire blow-outs, some emergency mechanical work, broken water lines, rough roads, heavy winds.  I could go on. 

More than once the words of Proverbs 16:9 came to mind, “in his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps”.

For all the planning and preparation we had done, our steps, or wheels rather, we’re definitely going in another direction.  

So what is this direction? And what is the purpose?

It’s been a daily unfolding.

If not for the first blow out we wouldn’t have met the local rancher who appeared, quite literally, out of no where with a cordless impact wrench to insist on helping us.  I wasn’t sure there were still people like that left in the world. But, yes. There are.

And if we hadn’t been delayed we wouldn’t have had the most spectacular steak dinner in Paisley, Oregon, where Doug ran into an old friend.

And we wouldn’t have stayed at peaceful Base Camp RV Park near Lakeview, Oregon.  Which turned out to be the perfect place to spend our first night on the road.

Because of delays we’ve missed connections and cancelled reservations.  We’ve been down highways we never intended to travel.  At one point I lamented of being off course.  But as a very wise friend posted on Facebook, “there is no off course, just other course”. 

She is right, of course.  I didn’t want to at first, but I like this “other” course.

I want to know more.

I’ve collected pictures and memories this first week.  As internet connection and time allow, I’ll keep sharing.

our yes and our no

I have said “no” when it was clearly the right thing.  I’ve also said “yes” to what should have been a clear “no” believing I could make it work anyway…with varying results.

I’ve said “yes” when it was clearly the right thing.  I’ve also said “no” to what should have been a clear “yes” believing I could make it work anyway…with varying results.

Quick decision making in a non-emergency situation is not what you will get from me.  I need to weigh the pros and cons, mull, consider, research and over-think.  And when the yes or no is finally given, it’s time for self doubt.

I don’t like this about myself.

It was both refreshing and convicting to read what Jesus said in Matthew 5:37, “all you need to say is simply “yes” or “no”; anything beyond this comes from the evil one”.  Clearly I have work to do.

For almost all the years of our marriage, Doug and I have talked of traveling around the USA.  Amazing places, new people and great food have beckoned like a fuzzy dream.  We started talking this dream into reality about a year ago.

I agreed that if nothing earth shattering happened with my Dad, then we could “probably, possibly, maybe” make it work.  I gave myself lots of room to say “no”.

After Dad entered hospice care we kept talking.   Even the hospice chaplain encouraged me to “live life”, “make plans”, “don’t stress” – – because none of us knows the timing of anything.  So I quietly, in faith, said yes.

And of course, Dad went home to Heaven on the first day of May.

God knows the timing of everything


It’s been a busy three weeks.  Lots of paperwork.  Lots of phone calls.  Lots of cleaning, sorting and arranging.  Not much time for thinking, or even grieving for my Dad.  Time will take care of that.

And now, we’re ready to go.

Monday morning we hit the road and this blog will become a sort of travel log.

We’ve got a wonderful friend holding down the fort at home with Mom.  Our gently used travel trailer is packed full.  I didn’t know which clothes to bring so I pretty much packed it all.  And our trusty “Black Beauty”, aka – the pick-up truck, is ready for the road.

We’re going to go where we want, when we want and see what we see, when we see it.  Plus, Doug has his list of barbecue joints to hit from Texas to Tennessee to North Carolina and back home again.  There may be a stop in Kansas City to complete the barbecue binge.

I’m not doubting my decision.  Not second-guessing my “yes”.  And I think Dad would be happy about this trip.  It’s something he talked of doing but never did.

He’ll be riding along in my heart.



on right timing and right people


My Dad died on May 1st.

I made, as they say, “final arrangements” for him on May 3rd.  And walked out of the funeral home with a veteran’s flag and his wedding ring.

It didn’t feel like a fair exchange.  Not fair at all.

My Dad was a good man and there is much I’d like to say about him.  I just haven’t been able to put the right words together yet.

But I do have words on putting the right people together.

A couple of days ago Mom brought me an old camera case of Dad’s.  Inside was a New Testament which had been hers as a girl.  Two addresses were listed on the inside cover, one was a house on Holly Park Circle in San Francisco.  The other was a house on Montana Street.  Both, she surmised, didn’t exist anymore.

She loved the house on Montana Street.  It was brand new.  Her father’s employer had built it for them, considering the rent part of my grandfather’s pay.  But they only lived there one year.  In 1941, Papa moved them all to Seattle.  He wanted to help the war effort so went to work at Boeing Field.

Just for fun I did a little research.  The little house on Holly Park Circle, all 844 square feet of it, is valued approximately $1.1 million!  (but, you know, that’s in San Francisco…so there’s that).  And the Montana Street house is also alive and well, coming in approximately $800,000.  Mom was shocked.

But the thing that stood out for me was the timing.  The house information states it was built in 1940, just as she said.  They lived in it one year.  Moved to Seattle.  She enrolled in high school.  Where she met Robert Jamison.  Who went to war.  Made it home.  Then began a new story with Opal.

Maybe I’m weird, but I’m always amazed to think of the places I’ve lived, the people I’ve known, the course changing decisions I’ve made… and how easily an outcome can be/has been re-directed.

So all I can say is, I’m thankful that my grandpa got a patriotic burr under his saddle and moved his family to Seattle at the right time.

I’m thankful that Robert and Opal got together.  I’m thankful for my life.

I’m thankful for these fun little bits of memory and history which soothe and heal.

And I’m thankful Dad’s suffering is done.



the day after… plus a week

It was a very good thing to have a place to go that morning.  The presidential election had robbed me of sleep but I didn’t want to keep looking at the blood bath on social media.  Besides, I wanted to see if the real world was still out there.  According to news reports, life was over as we’d known it.

It was mostly sunny when I left, the farmer up the road still had that one field of pumpkins to process and the line at Dutch Bros drive-thru looked normal.  I was happy to discover my phone GPS was still able to get me to a place I’d never been before.  Indeed, cyberspace was still functioning.

For the last five years I’ve said “no thanks” to the annual invitation to the luncheon hosted by the Family Caregiver Support Program.  My free time is limited and since I’m not a small-talk-luncheon-y type anyway, it just didn’t appeal to me.  This time I meant to say no, but yes came out instead.  I don’t know why.  But I’m glad.

It turned out there was nothing “small-talk” about the day.  There were representatives from support agencies with great information.  I re-connected with people I’d met when my mother-in-law was in hospice.  And there were a lot of people just like me… people who are trying their best to take care of a family member at home.

And best of all, not a word was spoken of the Donald/Hillary show.  Well, there was one ugly word.  By a haggard looking man sitting at my table.  We paid it no mind however, as his day started hard.  He’d already had a face to face with a police officer called by a “concerned” neighbor when she saw his Alzheimer patient wife running down the street in her nightgown and assumed she was neglected… all because he dared take a few minutes to jump in the shower before help arrived so he could take a couple of hours off to get more help.

Yep, the real world is still out there.  But it doesn’t always work as well as the GPS on my phone.

This week I got to thinking about my life span in relation to our presidents.

When I was born Harry Truman was in office.  From Harry to Barack there have been twelve presidents.

From the time I was legal to vote there have been eight presidents.  My vote assisted in electing only two of those eight.  Two!

Somehow, I’ve managed to survive all these years with only two presidents that I really, really liked… and during the times of the other six, never once did I feel the need to block a major highway or destroy property.

Watching Martha Raddatz wimper on election night was a little nauseating.  So worried she was for the mothers who are scared for their children to serve in a Trump military.  (Yea, I think that reporting might have been a little biased, Martha)

I actually remember feeling that way myself when I voted for Ross Perot, but Bill Clinton was elected.  I had a son enlisting in the army.  And goodness… if the man couldn’t control his personal life or even his personal body parts, why should he lead my child?

But my son did just fine.  All of them did.  And Bill had nothing to do with it.  It was their own personal goals, values and training that guided.  It was the attitude and choice to not quit when things were hard and painful that carried them.

The president, the economics of the day, the wars… yes, they have an impact.  But it’s the million little ways a person chooses to live each day that makes or breaks a life.

Not a president.

Which brings me back to the group of caregivers I spent that day with… a granddaughter who had quit her job to take care of grandpa… an 86 year-old man whose wife died 10 years ago, but he comes to lunch every year to encourage people… and eat, of course.  They all had interesting stories.  Hard stories.  But not defeated stories.

The guest speaker sat at my table for lunch.  “What do you want to hear about next”, she asked me.

“How do I keep my father clean without the drama, and save what’s left of my sense of smell.”

Everyone at the table laughed.  She smiled and said she could help me with that.  And judging by the oohs, aahs and mad note taking in the room, most folks had the same challenge.

I’d shared time and space that day with people who are choosing a hard way of life.  On purpose.  A way that is full of unknowns, trying and failing and keeping on.  I left encouraged and uplifted.  It washed the ugly TV drama right out of my mind.

Real people.  Real life.  Real hope.  It really is out there.  I keep praying our politicians will become real one day too.


He made the world to be lived in, not to be a place of empty chaos.  Isaiah 45:18


how faith and politics can come together

Judas betrayed Jesus.

Jesus was crucified.

Judas hung himself.

And the 12 apostles became 11.

How confused and overwhelmed they must have been.  For three years Judas had eaten with them, slept with them, traveled with them, watched Jesus walk on water with them.

How could he do this thing?

As they waited and wondered what next to do, Peter spoke of ancient scripture that predicted this very event, and also that they would need to find a replacement for Judas.  Their mission must continue.

The Book of Acts tells us they gathered to pray.  This was a decision they needed to get right.

“you know every heart. Show us which of these men you have chosen as an apostle to replace Judas the traitor in this ministry, for he has deserted us…”  Acts 1: 24,25

….. then they cast lots.

They voted.

When our presidential election cycles occur, our convictions and beliefs bubble to the surface.  We argue with each other at work, at the coffee shop, within our families and even in the church.  Some even join in large, noisy protest.

But when the election is over, most of us go back to “normal” life and assume someone else will carry the torch.  It’s convenient to lay down the battle flag.

I think the disciples’ plan was better.

They prayed.  They voted.  They carried on with their mission.

Perhaps that issue that gets me riled up every four years is actually something I need to get actively involved in.  Maybe there is something that eats at you.

If we took an issue and pressed in on it every day, not just once every four years… if we actually pressed our elected representatives to do what we elected them to do… maybe, just maybe we won’t end up in such an ugly place four years from now.

Pray. Vote. Carry on the mission.







light on the horizon

I don’t have words for this space lately.  At least not words fit to publish.

Maybe it’s media overload.  Maybe it’s storms and loss and hurting people.  Maybe it’s too much political trash talk.

All I know is last Friday, Doug and I took the long way home after a few days away from normal. It was good and peaceful and rainy.  And I don’t mind the rain.  I’m good with that.

We stopped to eat.  We stopped to shop.  We stopped so I could take a picture here and there.  But mostly I watched the sea.

And eventually, when the rain lifted a bit, I saw the light.

There had to be twenty people milling about the wayside.  When we got back in the car Doug asked if I had a good shot of the lighthouse.

“what lighthouse?”

I was there for the light.

So twenty people are looking at or taking pictures of the lighthouse to the north.  Meanwhile, I am mesmerized by the light in the west.

I’ll take a picture of the lighthouse next time.

Tonight there will be another presidential debate.  And life goes on for millions of Americans who just want to live a good and decent life.

I don’t know what lies ahead for my country, but I do know this:  I serve a God who has more wealth than Donald and more power than Hillary.  My future rests with Him.  And I’m good with that.

Just like I am with the rain.




When I make myself sit still long enough, I love to watch the wind in the tree tops.  It’s peaceful and calming.

There are people in life like that, like wind in tree tops.

Walter was one.

Thinking about him now, I’m a little embarrassed that I didn’t know more facts of his life, like the year he was born, where he was born or where he went to school.  I learned a lot when I read his obituary.  The Walter I know best is the one who married my aunt, my mother’s younger sister.

He loved her.  He loved her son, Adam, as his own.  He held things together when her daughter died.

That’s what Walt did.  He held people and situations together with peace and calm.

When my boys spent summer days in California with their grandparents, I heard all about their visit with Uncle Walt, what he said, where they went and the airplane flights he took them on.  My youngest credits him with his career choice because “Uncle Walt said to pick what I absolutely love to do”.  So he absolutely did.

Walt was a successful business man who stayed out of the spotlight.  He was a doer and a giver who didn’t want the credit.  He was a follower of Christ who didn’t preach.  His every day life said it all.

He was gracious and loving to my parents and grandparents.  And over time I began to see him as more than just a nice man who married my aunt.  He was a good friend and a voice of wisdom.

He loved good books, good conversation, good coffee and wide open spaces.  He was pretty fond of trees, too.

He typically didn’t offer opinions, but was happy to oblige when asked.  I liked that.  Sometimes he said what you didn’t want to hear, but I mostly liked that too.  It was honest.

Years ago my parents decided it was time to downsize from a big house to a little bit smaller big house.  Mom found the perfect floor plan in the perfect location.  They had planned to pay cash but their house was stuck in escrow, and time was running out.  Walt didn’t want them  to worry and said he would buy it for them.  And they could pay him back later.

And that’s exactly what happened.

He bought them a house!  He did it as casually as you’d loan someone a jacket or buy them an ice cream cone.

Who does a thing like that?


As the years rolled on, he was there to bury my grandparents.  And then he buried my aunt.

When it was time to make big changes for my parents, Walt agreed it was good to move them north with me.  He told me I was doing the right thing.  Those words relieved me.  Because sometimes doing the right thing looks like anything but.

After the move there was rarely a week that Walt didn’t call Mom or she him.

But he hadn’t been well.  Not for a long time.  He didn’t like to talk about it and preferred to enjoy the good moments, drink the good coffee and spend time with people he loved.   And so, one year ago, with that goal in mind he made his last driving trip north.

It took him two days to drive a distance that Doug or I drive in a few hours.  We had a great visit, Mom was thrilled and he ate fresh tomato sandwiches straight from Doug’s garden  When Walt was ready to leave, all he wanted us to do for him was look on our fancy phones and find him some Dutch Bros. coffee places along his route.  He left a happy man… with a list of freeway exit numbers in hand.

Two months ago, Mom called as normal and was surprised to hear he’d been in the hospital… that there was no more they could do… that he was in hospice care.

Doug and I went to see him one more time.

It was obvious he was in pain and didn’t want to talk about that.  But one of his first questions was to ask about Doug’s health, which is classic Walt.  And since Doug is equally committed to not talking about that either, the conversation moved on.  To things like…

… did we have our trust in order?  Because, you know, “it’s important for your family”.  And we talked a little bit about the knucklehead presidential election… and a lot about fresh tomato sandwiches.  We updated him on our kids.  He talked about Adam and how blessed he was to have him.

Next morning we arrived with Dutch Bros. and cinnamon rolls before leaving town.  Had one more hug goodbye, and hit the road.

It’s been one month today that Walter left us.  There was no fanfare at his leaving.  It’s been quiet and calm, kind of like wind in tree tops.  But I think that would be fine with Walt.  It suits his style.

In the book of Hebrews, Paul talks about the heroes of our faith, the forerunners, the trail blazers…  people like Abraham, Isaac, Moses and David… how they struggled on their journeys and are now witnesses to ours.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us.

Hebrews 12:1-3 NLT

Walt didn’t carry extra weight of any kind… no stress, no bitterness, no worries, no anger.  He traveled light and loved well.  He did what he knew to do and let the rest go.

I like to think that as Walt made his run that last day, he could hear the excited voices encouraging, urging him forward.  And when he opened the front door of home, was greeted with cheers and hugs and high-fives from these happy faces, these who had blazed the trail before him.

And I don’t think he minded at all… a little bit of fanfare.

Well done, Walter.

And, thank you.


the case for sensible shoes… and freedom

My mother is struggling to find comfortable shoes.  Therefore, I am struggling to help her find comfortable shoes.  Sore feet do not make for happy people.  And we need to find some happy around here!

She finds shoes in catalogs.  I order them online.  We go shopping once a week and come home with more.  Sometimes they get returned, but mostly not.

The other day she had me mail a package to my sister.  Then told me she sent the “cute, blue stretchy pair” to my niece.  It occurred to me this might be an inherited family trait.  My grandmother used to complain about her feet all the time.  She bought shoes all the time.  Offered them to me all the time.  Or… mailed them to me.

Quite a while ago Mom was fitted with sensible shoes.  They have special inserts to address her particular foot problems.

She does not wear them.

Except when she goes to the doctor.

Admittedly, they aren’t pretty.  But if they keep you walking, why wouldn’t you wear them?

So last week at her appointment the doctor asked me the questions…

Dr – “does she wear these other than when she comes to see me?” (sounds like he’s been this route before)

Me – “um, no”

D. – “does she scuff around the house in slippers with no support”

Me – “um, yes”

I felt like a horrible, rotten, betraying daughter.  And Mom was pretty crushed.  The doc made it clear there is no magic pill or potion for happy feet – – just good support.  Period.

And then Mom said it – “Well, I guess I’m just vain about my feet and shoes”.

Yes!  Yes!  Me too!

Except it’s not about my feet and shoes.  It’s all the rest of me.

This past year has been full of major events.  Among them, two son’s weddings and a formal military retirement.  Every event had its share of picture-taking.

I try to avoid being photographed.  This can be accomplished by being the photographer.  Short of that, I do my best to hang in the background or camouflage myself behind a shoulder.  Afterwards I spend an inordinate amount of time criticizing myself.

Why do I do that?  It’s no secret that I’m over weight.  No camouflage hides that.  And I’ve lived on this earth for 67 years.  No secret there either.

And before you know it, the special day is over.  There are pictures to prove it… I’m just not in many of them.

A few weeks ago some of the family dropped by.  We had dinner then sat around the table gabbing.  I love that.  My granddaughter was on my lap as my daughter-in-law snapped our picture.  She asked permission to put it on Facebook.

I surprised myself by agreeing.

Later, privately, I did my usual lament about an overdue trip to the hair salon, the make-up-less face, the double chin.  I loved having the picture, but hoped no one would scroll down my page and actually see it.

But really, how much longer will this granddaughter sit on my lap and wrap her arms around my neck?  Or her siblings?  Her cousins?  Not much longer.  I want pictures of that, not only in memory but to hold in my hand.

And do I really want to waste one more minute thinking about things I cannot change?  Or worse, fretting about something I can change but haven’t?  Nope.  I don’t.


So the last few days Mom has been wearing her sensible shoes… mostly.  She’s trying a little harder to make the good choices for her health and accept what can’t be changed.

Me too.

And personally, I’ve always loved sensible shoes.  Maybe I get that from my other grandmother?






loving grown-up sons

Awhile back I wrote of the ease and sweet memories of loving little sons.  Loving grown-up sons is more complicated.  Maybe not so much the loving as the letting go.

Their adult lives have been shaped by experiences I have not lived and do not understand.  They have wives and children, careers, friends and activities to fill their days.  I am only a small part of that.

As adults, they are well able to see me for who I am.  My vulnerabilities and imperfections are on full display.

But it wasn’t always that way.

When Daniel was in elementary school, he hopped onto a bicycle that was too big, drove into the middle of the street and smack into a car that had (fortunately) slowed down to make a right turn.

He was on his feet with a bloody arm, headed to the house before the driver realized what had happened.  I wrapped a clean bath towel around the wound because I didn’t want him to see it and be afraid.

I didn’t want to see it and be afraid.  But even at that, I could keep it together.  I could make the decision.  A trip to the ER, a few stitches and all was well in our world again.

I expected loving and caring for sons would cover uncharted territory as the years went by.  I just didn’t expect it to come in the form of war and bullets and 3 a.m. phone calls from strange-sounding places on the other side of the earth.

I didn’t expect it to come from jungles in Ecuador, or helicopter flights from Oregon to Alaska.  In winter.  That briefly lost power.  No, I didn’t like hearing that.

And I didn’t expect it one year ago on Labor Day, when I walked into the house, arms full of groceries to, “Courtney called, and Daniel… motorcycle down… hospital…call later”.

I didn’t expect to hear my son had been hauled out of a blackberry thicket by paramedics, broken and bleeding.

When I saw him the next day I realized there was no bath towel big enough to wrap around this wound.  Because it was his whole, alive self.  The most important word in that last sentence being – ALIVE.

So I sat next to him awhile as his sweet and capable wife managed and charted his pain meds.  I made a lame comment or two.  I patted his arm.

And I presented him with a bag of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies… which he could not eat because of the stitches in his mouth.  Talk about lame…

He asked me to pull the cover over his exposed ankle.  Maybe because he was trying to give his poor mother something to do.  Maybe because he wanted to cover the wound so I wouldn’t see it and be afraid.  Or maybe because his foot was cold.

Whatever the reason, it was the only thing I did that day that felt the tiniest bit helpful.


Photo Collage by Courtney McGillivray

Happily he is mostly recovered.  It’s been slow and steady and painful. The need to get back on his feet and care for his family has pushed him forward.  And bonus, he can eat chocolate chip cookies again!

I’ve never been the hovering sort.  But still, this inward process of letting go and loving grown-up sons has been much like Daniel’s recovery.  Slow, steady and occasionally painful.

They don’t need me to be a giant Mom bandage of protection.  They never did..

I think they just need me to trust and relax and cheer them on.  To have the answer when they call for that recipe I used to make.  To gather us around the family table when time permits.

Since there’s no point hiding it, I will let them see the good, the bad, and the silly of me… and hope they will do the same.  Leaving that open space of vulnerability is, to me, the only way you can honestly love anybody anyway.

And I will continue to hand them over to God.  Every single day.  His love is bigger and stronger than mine.  And I will do this over and over and over again until the day I die.

Which I hope isn’t soon.

Because there are still beach trips that need to happen, trips to anywhere that need to happen, grandchild adventures, craft days with daughters-in-law and my photographs aren’t sorted.

And there’s still a zip-line in a forest calling my name.



making the climb, hanging on

With a baby there are sleepless nights, diapers to change and constant feedings.  The mess they make is contained to a relatively small space.

With a helpless, aging adult there are sleepless nights, diapers to change and the challenge to find ways to feed them adequately when they’ve forgotten how to use knife and fork.  And the messes, well, they can cover a mind-blowingly large space.

With a baby the work is hard and often isolating, especially for the stay at home parent. But babies are cute.  The internet is loaded with helpful, funny, encouraging “mommy blogs”. You know this won’t last forever and the expectation is baby will grow month by month, year by year into an independent adult.

With the helpless, aging adult there is continued decline.  Independence is gone.  They are not cute. The process is isolating for the one being cared for and the one doing the caring. Although you know this won’t last forever, you can’t help but wonder “how long”.  You feel like a jerk.

And I guarantee you, absolutely no one wants to read about it.

It’s not a pretty story.  And oddly enough, the people you think might care the most want to hear it the least.

A few days ago I accidentally washed a little frog off the side of a flower-pot.  Didn’t mean to do it, but with one misplaced splash of water, down he went.  It took him awhile but he made the climb with his sticky, little feet (or whatever you call them on a frog) and eventually got to the top.  I admired his “stick-to-it-ness”.  Get it? Stick? Sticky? Ok, well…

Anyway, some days can feel like the frog that got washed away.  It can take a while to get your bearings and find a new route to where you need to go.  Especially when it’s hard to ask for help… because you never know what to expect from that.

But on this day the phone rang.  And I didn’t answer it.  Because it was the lady from the state who has an outreach to family caregivers.  I didn’t answer.  Outreach to family caregivers.  What is wrong with me?

Because even I don’t want to read or hear or talk about it.  I’m just trying to hang on. Don’t confuse me with help.

I did call her back, however.  It’s the polite thing to do.

And she had just the right words.  Information I didn’t know I needed.  That came at the right time.

I’d hung on long enough to hear them.

My journal is filled with questions, as God helps me work through these years.  Sometimes the occasional answer is even written down.  Mostly I write in circles and lately it’s been frustrating.

But Jesus said he was leaving something behind…

I’m leaving you at peace. I’m giving you my own peace. I’m not giving it to you as the world gives. So don’t let your hearts be troubled, and don’t be afraid.  

John 14:27

His Very Own Peace.

And again I’m reminded to lose the worry for the answers and not be afraid.  Just take the free gift.  And probably the phone calls too.

I had another bit of encouragement this weekend.  I went to the Oregon State Fair for the first time in all the years I’ve lived here.  One building housed a group of Oregon Authors. Imagine, piles of books and authors… all in one place!

Honestly though, it was a rather lackluster looking group.  Except for one lady.  She was on her feet chatting with other fair goers.  Everyone else was quietly seated.  Most were hesitant to make eye contact.  No business cards.  But this lady, she had a table full of pretty, purple books, leaflets to hand out and directions to her Amazon page.

She was an energy magnet that pulled person after person to her table.

And she is 94 years old.


She did caution me though, “don’t wait as long as I did to write your story, dear”.

“I have three more in me and time is running out!”

Thank you Ruby Williams Jones for,  The Heart of the Homestead.  Thank you for not giving up on your story.


And thank you, Jesus, for taking on the weight of those words that some don’t want to hear.  And loving us all anyway.