31 Days of Aging Grace ~ The Grace To Die Well

We entered ICU and his eyes lit up like always when he sees someone he loves... which is just about everybody. My husband, two youngest and myself, each had a moment with him... a hug... a few words. The nurse told us he'd been in and out of delirium.  Not to expect much.  But he seemed totally present …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ The Day She Called the Cops

One thing God is trying to teach me... to not be afraid of what people think... about what I do and what I say.  He wants me to care more about what He thinks... about what I do and what I say.  I want that too.  But the fear creeps back.  A lot. Especially with this caregiving role I find …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Why Can’t Things Stay The Way They Were?

This saying goodbye to the way things were... I do not like it... no, not one bit. I've been doing it this past year in my own life.  It's not easy.  It's painful.  It requires learning and acceptance and humility.  And I keep asking God, "aren't I too old for all this new stuff?" Apparently not. …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Silhouette: Outline of Goodbye

We left at "O-dark-thirty", as the husband says, in the cold, rainy, dark of morning... truck and trailer filled with the last of Dad's big tools... A stop for coffee in California farmland... Then up and over the Siskiyou mountains... clouds outlined against sky... a first dusting of snow on the peaks... It feels odd to carry …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Such Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, That saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now am found, Was blind, but now I see. That was my grandfather's favorite hymn.  A favorite of many I'm sure.  I get a little teary-eyed... especially when bagpipes play it. Next week I'll be thinking of him and others, …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Perfect. Not.

We are all perfectly imperfect because that's how God made us..... We just need to be ourselves, because no one else will do..... Love never fails, I've seen it in action... and because He says so..... God's promises are true.  Period. That's what being mom to the four I've chattered about this week has taught me... …

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31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Fly Boy Courage

In 5th grade he competed in the science fair. He borrowed my blow dryer.  We bought him poster board.  He scrounged some clear plastic wrap, string and yards of his favorite substance… duct tape. He hand carved a tiny plane.  He fashioned a wind tunnel. And the little plane flew. It was the most popular …

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