Thank you, Father, for loving me thru the angry rants I send your way... For soothing the head I beat against the wall of hopelessness... day after day after day. You stand steady and patiently wait for me. You restore. heal. lift up... so I can take another step forward.  Today.

31 Days of Aging Grace ~ Dazed and Confused

Day Six I followed the van thru my neighborhood streets… streets I knew by heart.  Wynooski makes a sharp veer to the left.  I remembered that slightly “out of control” feeling as each son learned to navigate that curve in early driving lessons. Suddenly, unbelievably, the van missed the left turn and smashed into a …

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i do not love her….

Nine and one-half months I have lived in this house that is not mine... well long enough to birth a baby. But what has been birthed here? A lot of days go quiet, but she can't seem to hold the ugly in forever and let's it fly.  And I want to fly... away. I told him the other night, …

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On Boots ‘n’ Pooh ‘n’ Writing

I've had a problem getting words on paper lately.  It's been a problem for a while actually... started last October when my life changed so dramatically. My bossy inner critic keeps telling me I have nothing to say - to just keep quiet.  The word police have arrested me.... "you can't say that".  So in the effort to push …

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Grace for the Overly Stressed

"What's happenin' Mom", the customary greeting from a son's Sunday morning call. "Oh, not much", my customary response ......when I don't really want to talk about what is going on ....when I don't want to verbalize the "what's happenin" because there's more than I can handle. When he mentions he and the brothers and the …

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